I was raised in a Christian home where I learned early that it was up to me to be “good” and earn my place with God. Even then, I sensed that God’s love was much bigger than what I had been taught. While my family struggled in many ways, I found belonging in my faith community, which gave me a sense of stability and order.

Over time, life led me into seasons of disruption—what I now understand as “Disorder,” a necessary stage of spiritual growth. My parents divorced, my understanding of faith was challenged, and later in life, my identity, relationships, and expectations all began to shift. These experiences invited me into deeper questions and a more honest, personal faith.

During this time, spiritual direction became a turning point. It offered a safe and sacred space to be fully honest, and gradually I moved into a more grounded and spacious way of living—what some call “Reorder.” I began to trust that both light and darkness belong, and that the sacred is present in all of it.

Alongside this inner work, I began to recognize that the body carries its own wisdom and story. Learning to listen to my body became an important part of my journey. This led me to Kaiut Yoga, a gentle, joint-based practice that supports mobility and resilience over time. What I love most is its quiet, consistent approach—it mirrors the inner work of spiritual direction: patient, attentive, and grounded in listening.